Saturday, May 12, 2007

ka-ching!

Cultivating friendships is the best rewards program.

While I was going through the ups and downs of this last little dating episode, my friends were there to help me stay balanced and sane.

By always making time for my friends, I have been able to draw upon their support when it matters the most.

I am past the point in my life where I need lots of advice. Instead, I just need people who know how to have a good time without any drama. In the last two days, I managed to go to happy hour, dinner w/girlfriend, Sat breakfast at the best bakery in the Mission, rollerblading on the Embarcadero, and my favorite, dancing tonight. All these friends just stepped in to have some fun with me.

Wait, that's life every week! So, it goes to show, that by knowing my priorities and maintaining the perfect balance, life moves along happily, man or no man. Yes, life would be even better with a partner, but that day will be here soon enough.

For now, I am one happy chica! Wheeeee!

Friday, May 11, 2007

being very single, again...

Even though I had a gut feeling to call it off with the latest guy, I stuck it out on the advice of several close friends. True, rarely does someone share my lifestyle and can be so much fun.

After one too many canceled dates, it's over.

As much as I want to be understanding, I am just beyond waiting for these boys to become men. Instead of making excuses and expect me to be understanding, why not just admit that you are not up to par?

Is it my fault that I am ready to settle down while you are still so juvenile?

True, I detest elitism, but when it comes to finding the perfect mate, I cannot help but be picky. If I am going to ask that my children emulate this man, shouldn't he be the most perfect human being that I connect with?

The irony. The more I am single, the more I have time and resources to perfect myself, while most of the men (and women) are wasting time stressed out about not having someone. Com'on. Come carrying me off to the sunset before I bench my own weight already! btw, I'm at 70% of my body weight on the bench.

Okay, hitting the gym. These staying-in Friday and Saturday nights are doing wonders for my fitness!!


Lastly, this is yet another example of risk everything and GAIN everything. The more I opened my heart, the more I was able to see the other person clearly. By letting go of myself and being completely attuned to him, I see how it's not meant to be. Feel blessed to move on w/o getting hurt, again. Peace.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

still the mind

Seven of my library books arrived this week. Any CA resident can reserve and check books out from SF library system. I usually find books on Amazon and "order" through the library. The library delivers it right to the closest branch.

Dived right into the Dalai Lama's Ethics for the New Millennium. A refreshing change from all the LEED reading.

It occurred to me that I had forgotten to make time for myself in the last few months. It's been so much planning and doing that I haven't been still. I love the frenzy pace, but it's time to change and be still. Just as I am switching from snow sports to summer activities, it's time to reassess activities and people.

Wonder what's next...

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

round one concluded

The interview was fine. I have the personality and the vision to fit in the firm. Ended up talking about how to make the land use legal business better.

Still, whether I can actually do the research and writing is on everyone's mind, including mine.

Let's see if I make it to the second round.

The irony was that my tentative date w/M was canceled b/c he worked late. That might be me soon enough...

Monday, May 07, 2007

priorities

I just turned down 2 tickets to the Sharks game tonight, and this just might be their last game this season. They are down 3-2 in the playoffs against the Detroit Red Wings.

That's how much the interview tomorrow means to me.

Sorry G, I said that I would take you...