When you wish that you did something different, you are denying your own existence. You are the summation of all your past, and to be true to yourself, you must embrace all of you, past and present.
Any doubt about past decisions is really a test of how we see ourselves. Ultimate acceptance happens only with willingness to embrace ourselves.
Every day, I try my best to encourage others because I care about them for the truth of their choices. I love people percisely because they have made very different and often times difficult decisions. If I have not encountered all these fascinating and at times unbelievable people and their stories, I would not have learned nearly as much.
For every joy and every tear, there is the truth. Sometimes I can see the truth, but most times people hide it from me behind excuses and blames. It is easy for me to empathize because I also fall prey to shame. Yes, we learn to hide ourselves because we were hurt or were taught to criticize our experiences.
Enough. If the rest of the world is going to be critical, I choose to be enlightened. To be human is to celebrate each moment, especially the most humbling ones. There is good in every moment because the summation of those little moments makes up our precious lives.