my world

Took some heat last night from two friends for my latest attempt to change jobs. They both were disappointed and urged me to focus and to settle on one job for a while. The judgement was hard to take at first, since both have been friends with me for over 12 years.

I do appreciate having these two very successful friends in my life. One is a management consultant and the other one is an HR VP. Their careers are models of how one can do what one loves and get paid very well doing it.

Still, I also see the value of doing things my way, regardless of how illogical my choices may appear to others. I have taken so many risks in my life, including this job. The decision to work for family did not pan out, but I learned and made enough money to support myself.

At any given point, I try to make the best decision that I can, and I have to be my biggest supporter.

It's been a painful path to have to walk away from these amazing projects at work, but I am not productive at work any more. I struck a deal with a board member, and none of the deal was ever realized. It's time to focus on what I am passionate about once again.

sacred

A man has fallen.

He has fallen in love with a dear friend of mine.

So rare these days, to hear the story of passionate love.

The kind that consumes a person completely,

And fill the woman's apartment with flowers,

And her ears with sweet words.

I haven't felt that way for quit some time.

So it's the story about the fool in love,

That makes me believe that,

All is well in the world.

where life takes me

Unlike most of my friends, I stopped living a goal-oriented life in college. I remember that first year in undergrad, I was quite motivated.

Somewhere between college and grad school, I started to adapt a laid back attitude. Hard to figure out why, but life just doesn't need to be all about achieving any more.

Being satisfied with the status quo does not win popularity contests. In fact, it has caused all sort of raised eyebrows. I just had a debate with a friend about making decisions. She picks a goal and takes steps toward that goal. I, on the other hand, always follow my gut. My friend was amazed that I never know what's next. She is in the top pharmacy school right now, and the way she got there was to completely focus during the application process.

For me, life is a series of events and experiences. Sometimes connected, other times at odds with one another. Bottom line is that I am usually happy and have little worries. Isn't that enough?

I do have some balance in my life by having some minimum expectations for the future. Still, I truly believe that by acquiring more life skills, I will be able to handle whatever comes my way. My latest dream is to possibly work and live in South America. That means I need Spanish, savings and more friends from the Southern Hemisphere!