I live for the euphoria that dating brings, and I am once again captured by that everything-is-perfect feeling. Except this time around I am old enough to just let it all sink in. I finally realize that most people are quite honest when things are good, and that's what's worth appreciating about relationships.
As I have gotten older, I am going backwards. I am less jaded and ever more hopeful. Perhaps I am truly blessed because I can the good in everyone. What is truly beautiful is always seeing people for who they are and not how they fall short or are not quite who we want them to be.
It's easier to date now than in my 20s because I am not asking for anything except time and an open mind. It's a lot easier to date and to befriend people b/c I am just looking for people to share life experiences to start off.
The next level is to build a life-long connection with those few special people. Maybe it's not entirely necessary b/c I have it with my parents and my siblings. Maybe I can accept the fact that romance is not meant to be right now.
Ironically it is this very acceptance of the possibility of being alone that makes the dating oh so wonderful!
Friday, January 05, 2007
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
follow your dreams
So I just committed myself to four months of Spanish classes, Tuesdays and Thursdays. I am psyched about learning another language. Spanish is such a useful language that I cannot wait for all the doors it's going to open. Do have an indirect goal to live in South America for a while but learning the language is a first step.
I am beginning to see that my life doesn't have one big goal, like have a family or make oodles of money. Rather, I have many, many small goals that I am checking off the list. The last three years were fabulous b/c I did so many things. Now, it's more about bigger goals and more self improvement. Cannot wait to see what will happen this year!
I am beginning to see that my life doesn't have one big goal, like have a family or make oodles of money. Rather, I have many, many small goals that I am checking off the list. The last three years were fabulous b/c I did so many things. Now, it's more about bigger goals and more self improvement. Cannot wait to see what will happen this year!
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
absolute bliss
For a while now, I have been quite content b/c life has been very, very good. I have almost zero complaints, and everything is going my way.
Has my luck changed? What is different?
It turns out, it's just my attitude. Am generally a positive person, but there have been quite a few emotional hurdles because I used to expect so much from myself.
These days, it's just all about enjoying the moment. That, and following my intuition. I find it amusing that people spend so much precious time thinking about what to do next. If people use all that thinking time to just feel and do, then they would be happier even if all they did was nothing.
Yesterday and today, there is just a sense of peace and joy. I have done little this holiday season, yet the happiness if overflowing. Well, it's almost time to get moving again. Next up, back to LA/OC!
Has my luck changed? What is different?
It turns out, it's just my attitude. Am generally a positive person, but there have been quite a few emotional hurdles because I used to expect so much from myself.
These days, it's just all about enjoying the moment. That, and following my intuition. I find it amusing that people spend so much precious time thinking about what to do next. If people use all that thinking time to just feel and do, then they would be happier even if all they did was nothing.
Yesterday and today, there is just a sense of peace and joy. I have done little this holiday season, yet the happiness if overflowing. Well, it's almost time to get moving again. Next up, back to LA/OC!
Monday, January 01, 2007
how to please me
Before you get too excited, this is a PG post, so the title is about a spiritual connection.
Looking back at the club experience Friday night, I have to say that a lot of men tried to pick up in all the wrong ways. Many times, men try to impress by doing what they think is important, mostly showing off.
I appreciate the fact that they care and want to impress, but to impress me, I am looking for someone who is completely themselves and can let me be me.
Unfortunately, I have only met a handful of men who is able to put others at ease and can let others be themselves. Even I am not entirely skilled in the art of unconditional acceptance.
So I find myself uncomfortable when men try to impress. Really, if you are trying, it's not going to work.
So the match guys are trying, and it's endearing. At the same time, I find myself pulling back more than usual because I just don't follow the rules of the game. In fact, I am probably labeled a terrible person because I am not returning e-mails. Oh well.
Just like that, the whole dating puzzle has been solved. I am looking forward to playing it by my rules. Similar to my experience with having fun, the dating game is going to be effortless b/c it is, like everything else, all about intuition!
Looking back at the club experience Friday night, I have to say that a lot of men tried to pick up in all the wrong ways. Many times, men try to impress by doing what they think is important, mostly showing off.
I appreciate the fact that they care and want to impress, but to impress me, I am looking for someone who is completely themselves and can let me be me.
Unfortunately, I have only met a handful of men who is able to put others at ease and can let others be themselves. Even I am not entirely skilled in the art of unconditional acceptance.
So I find myself uncomfortable when men try to impress. Really, if you are trying, it's not going to work.
So the match guys are trying, and it's endearing. At the same time, I find myself pulling back more than usual because I just don't follow the rules of the game. In fact, I am probably labeled a terrible person because I am not returning e-mails. Oh well.
Just like that, the whole dating puzzle has been solved. I am looking forward to playing it by my rules. Similar to my experience with having fun, the dating game is going to be effortless b/c it is, like everything else, all about intuition!
don't get stuck
Tonight, a friend told me about his latest round of "off" in his on-again, off-again relationship. Sigh. I teased him that his life is "drama, drama, drama," and he replied that he doesn't need any more drama.
Can't he see that after 2 years, the relationship isn't going to work. They aren't even engaged, and there are so many issues.
The bell-shaped theory of love! Realize that no matter how good the good is, if there is repeated negativity, move on.
Ironically, the friend wanted to go for a drive later today, and although I agreed, I am going to pass. I don't need to be the escape. To be a better friend, I am going to let him figure this one on his own.
Slowly, I see that I have been more positive this year b/c I have been able to capture all the goodness in others and let them get through the downs with distanced support. It's what I do for myself, get through tough patches on my own, with friends near by when I need it.
Oh yeah, Happy New Year!
Can't he see that after 2 years, the relationship isn't going to work. They aren't even engaged, and there are so many issues.
The bell-shaped theory of love! Realize that no matter how good the good is, if there is repeated negativity, move on.
Ironically, the friend wanted to go for a drive later today, and although I agreed, I am going to pass. I don't need to be the escape. To be a better friend, I am going to let him figure this one on his own.
Slowly, I see that I have been more positive this year b/c I have been able to capture all the goodness in others and let them get through the downs with distanced support. It's what I do for myself, get through tough patches on my own, with friends near by when I need it.
Oh yeah, Happy New Year!
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